12/29/08

AAAAAARRRRRGGGGHHHHH

It. Never. Freaking. FAILS.

Here I am, another week to go on my Christmas vacation, and things are finally starting to work out. The gold and silver did beautifully in the kiln, finally finished all of those ceramic thingies. I have to help butcher the 2nd deer hanging in th garage - even yesterday with the temps at 40, it was frozen solid. Got a letter from Joe Wilson, saying he is working on the project I asked him to and he will let me know the minute he hears something. It's good to have friends.

I wake up this morning and I have another. FREAKING. kidney infection.

With my SLE (systemic lupus) I have grown to expect these. If it isn't what's left of my colon freaking out, my kidneys are in revolt. I can't drink too much pepsi or even eggnog or cider, even unpolluted with liquor, because my kidneys go nutz. As long as I stick to water, tea, and coffee I'm ok, but you know I love the holidays... sigh.

The meds I take taste terrible. You'd think they could put something that horrific in a gelcap, but noooooooo. They make my whole mouth taste like I just licked clean a metal kitty litter box. Plus they make me sick to my stomach, so even though I am supposed to drink lots of water with them, just the thought turns my stomach. Arrrrggghhh.

So much to do and so much I want to do and my stupid body cannot keep up with me. Stupid body.

12/26/08

Winter Picnic

Well, we went for a picnic today. I know that sounds kind of nuts, it being 30 degrees and all. But we made ham sanwiches and took the cheese, crackers and salami, and some chocolates, put the dogs' sleeping bag in the back of the car, and went down to Merritt Dam. Since snow was predicted for this afternoon and tonight, we wanted to go while it was clear and pretty.

I posted some pics a long time ago from Merritt Dam, with the water rushing down the blowhole, and the dammed river behind it. Today, though, it was frozen at the blowhole... and all across the river. What looks at first glance like waves are where snow has drifted into the frozen 'waves'.


Below the two-lane road, you can see where the falls have frozen in place. Further down the hill, the water is still running at the base of the dam; still a pretty good undercurrent. But up on top it is frozen solid!

We took the dogs out for a long walk, and they tracked deer and startled a grouse in the high weeds. There were rabbit, turkey, and raccoon tracks too. The dogs were very pleased. Sasha loves to run with the wind in her face anyway, and that wind blowing across the ice was a good 20 degrees colder than back at the house! When Sasha couldn't get a good sniff at the tracks, she would shovel her nose under the snow to sniff at the dirt beneath, throwing the snow up high an spraying everyone with snow! She was having so much fun!

Then we went down to the riverside for our picnic. These pictures are from the opposite shore from the dam...


The sky is really that blue, and the river reflecting the sky from that angle looks like water with waves on it. It isn't until you step closer that you see the lines of the frozen surface, and realize that it is frozen. We had our little picnic here, with the dogs dancing for the ham we brought for them.

Then we took the back roads back home again. They are very narrow and sand-covered, but pretty clear even after all of the below-zero temperatures, blowing snow, sleet, and ice of the past month. We crossed over the Niobrara again, and in a lovely valley I took these shots of the smaller but still beautiful river...



The snow clouds were starting to gather, and puffing up all big and full of portent. The wind continued to pick up as we drove home, and by the time we got here was up to 25 mph, a good steady wind. "I don't know if there'll be snow" but it was breathtakingly beautiful out on the ice today!

12/25/08

My First Christmas

Like most Christmases, ths one has been a rush of hurry-up; stuff not working right before it goes into the kiln, taking forever to mold up, not doing what it is supposed to IN the kiln... and money shortages and time shortages. Sigh. One thing you can't rush through is firing clay. Another thing I haven't had time for is the baking I love to do. All week off work, and other things just kept intruding...

Our first Christmas here is beautiful. There has been snow on the ground all week, like thin frosting on a cake. Today though it is 34 degrees, and everything is melting! The Ruggles' kids are all back in town; and one of them got a sled for Christmas. That hill behind their house still has a glaze of snow, and they are sledding down it! How cool is that. Gunshots over by the range; I wonder if someone is getting deer or turkey or just having fun. The sun reflecting off of the snow is so bright, glowing, and fresh looking. It still looks like a picture postcard from the '50's here; so calm and happy, brilliant and peaceful, shiny and new like a Christmas toy.

So why am I so introspective, today of all days?

I do miss my friends and Tammy. Lots. Wish I could just bundle them all up and bring them here. Tammy is going 15 different directions; new boyfriend, wants to move, can't move, doesn't have a job where she wanta to be, is getting treated like crap -as usual -in her job back there. people taking advantage of her, wanting to get away, feeling trapped. This is what I want, and where I want to be, and I have good friends here, but Christmas they are all very family-oriented so no one drops by.

There's plenty of food like always, and the cider and eggnog are hot and cold respectively. Everything is set just like it always is, table groaning with the snackages.

But I miss my friends. I knew I would. I knew I made a definite choice, it's not like it's a surprise. And I miss them not just today but all the time - knowing that my dreams are not theirs, knowing that we'll probably drift apart, knowing that we'll probably never see each other again. It's hard to think about that even though I knew it two years ago, ten years ago. I've moved 10 times before, and it always hurts. I am happy and sad - I am happy and want to share it with them like I always have, and they can't even imagine what it is like, and are busy doing what we all used to do. I want to show them the things I see, let them feel what I feel, and learn what I learn, but they can't. I think that is what makes me sad... that I can't share this happiness with them.

Tomorrow it is supposed to snow again. I think I'll try to go driving before it snows, look at the river, walk next to the lake, and enjoy the stark and living beauty of the place. And wish I could be with my friends and show it all to them!

12/5/08

A Merry Christmas To My Friends

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11/26/08

Thanksgiving Contemplations and Discoveries

Holy crap.
Who knew I had this many Christmas lights and decorations? Hands?
OK, I was pretty worried about having enough lights to decorate this new house - it has sooooo many more places to put things and soooo many more eaves to hang lights. Today after work I went down into the basement and started opening all of those "Christmas decoration" boxes so we could hang things while it was "warm" - 50 deg. Down at the bottom of each box, there were strings and strings and STRINGS of lights. Icicle lights, garland lights, straight-string lights. I started to set aside groups so I would have enough for the tree, but then I had to separate that pile... Too many even for the seven foot tree!

The Big Tree will go in the bay window, and I'll do the red and gold this year. My kids always thought I was crazy, carefully saving the color-co-ordinated tinsel year to year, wrapped in sheets of flat newspaper to keep them uncrinkled. Well, I have the silver for my blue and silver decor, and the holographic for my multicolor decor, and the red and gold for - well. I found all of my trees, too - the tiny ceramic one, the rotating fiber-optic one, the tree-in-the-burlap base one, and of course the Big Tree. Each one will have its own special place...

Then there's ALL those tabletop and wall decorations... The huge glass elk, the sterling-silver deer, the birch tree candleholders, the candles candles candles!

I brought eight big boxes up from the basement, all outdoor decorations, and left the seven boxes of indoor decorations downstairs for later. We finished the lights on the front porch and out on the arbor; a large chandelier tree hangs from the porch ceiling. Then the twinkling-star LED lights and garland all around, with big red bows to finish off the porch. Next was the bay window - "glittering" icicles that twinkle on and off asytmetrically, and, yes, twinkling net lights laid across the roof of the bay window to add to the movement. Tomorrow we will hang the verandah lights; the icicles and front-entrance framing lights, and an even bigger chandelier tree will hang on the verandah! I'll stretch net lights across the roof of the verandah as well, underneath my bedroom windows. I've already put up huge wreaths on the front and verandah doors already - another thing no one understood, WHY I save my wreaths year to year, and make or buy more. Well, this year I have DOORS to decorate!

So tomorrow I'll cook Thanksgiving dinner for just the two of us. No one's coming to dinner, our company all came last week. So we could just bake pies and eat them - but we'll have the fixin's we like for dinner and several dinners to come; the Turkey, the potatoes and gravy, the stuffing and devilled eggs and cheese and sausage on crackers, along with the pies. Then if I have the energy, I'll probably do some inside decorations, since the wind is supposed to be pretty brisk tomorrow. Saturday we'll finish up the outside, and Sunday night at sundown - per my agreement with my neighbor Pat, not one minute before! - we'll turn everythng on. And Saturday night we're supposed to get some light snow...

Today was a half day at work, So after everyone went down to watch the play I put up my red metallic backing paper for our Christmas bulletin board. Once Cheryl comes back Monday, she and I will stay after school and finish it. The Drama club kids bought me flowers for working on their costumes and helping them with makeup. They are sooo sweet! I have to fix Dustin's Puck costume this weekend, and finish up some work for school.

All in all, a very peaceful and happy little vacation. I miss my friends, but I wish THEY were HERE; I don't want to go back THERE! But I'll take pictures and send gifts to let them know I'm thinking of them all the same...

11/22/08

WHOO HOOOO! A nice Surprise!

My brother will be here in two hours!

Tammy came in from Vegas Wednesday morning, and is upstairs asleep right now. I just got a call from my brother Jim. He is loading potatoes in O'Neill and has to go to Blackfoot with them. So he is coming by on State Hwy 20, and dropping in to see us! What a surprise for Tammy! What a joy for us! To see my brother again!

He hasn't seen the house yet, although I've been sending him pictures. He and Dorren were thinking about coming by sometime around Christmas - but distances and time may keep us apart still, as they always seem to do. Driving down to North Platte a few months ago to meet him was a treat. He is always on the road, though, it seems, and we haven't been able to hook up since.

I can't wait to show him the place; the house, the town, and for him to see Tammy again.

Of course we had plans for the weekend; we always have plans. But this is a GREAT interruption! I think I'll make a CD of pictures of the house for him to take back to Dorren. And smuggle a couple of jars of pickles into his truck. Oh, wait, he likes horseradish, too - I'll clean some up and put it in a jar for him, too. What fun!

I really should get dressed first! LOL But I won't wake Tammy just yet... she's driving back east today and needs her sleep. She liked Las Vegas and now, finally, is ready to unass the east coast and come out here with us. I am so glad, especially with how those poor, pathetic, miserable folks back home are spending thousands of taxpayers' dollars to try to 'prove' that what we did was criminal back there. Well, it wasn't - that's what we had an attorney for - but they in their vicious and spiteful ignorance demanded a forensic audit and have now called in the State to investigate. What they will find is exactly what we found - the person who was ripping off the town did it legally if not ethically, and we fired her for it even though we couldn't prosecute her for it. As much as we wanted to. And she immediately sued us for 'discrimination' to muddy the waters and screw things up as much as she could, desperately struggling even in her guilt to hurt others. Tammy does not need to be there to hear all of that cruelty and meanness - cruelty and meanness that is endemic to that place. I'm glad she will finally get out of there. While here and in Vegas, she met REAL people - decent, honest, and fun-loving, who know how to live their lives cleanly and honestly, without knifing others for pure pleasure and excitedly wallowing in their own filth, because they have nothing better to do. Whew. She had no idea that there were whole AREAS of decent, intelligent, and thinking people who have real lives! And now that she has seen what the different areas have to offer, she is looking forward, not backward, just as we are doing and tried to teach all of our children to do.

It's funny how people who have no dreams always try to destroy the dreams of others, isn't it? I thought for years that all that had to be done was for them to be shown, and they would move ahead, move forward, eagerly and happily, rising ever upward in thought and action. I was wrong. The only thing one can do then is to shake them off, let them wallow, whine, cut and knife and torment each other for eternity, and move on. Tammy sees that now, and I'm glad of it. So she'll go back there and make her plans and then move out here! If you can call 1700 miles away "out here".... LOL So I'll have my brother, my son, and my daughter all within a reasonable distance. Life is GOOD!

Gotta get to work! Hee hee... My brother's coming!!!!

11/14/08

Second Place!!!

The Drama Club went to Hyannis and came in second!!! Seven of the kids received honorable mention, and one was runner-up for Best Actress.

These kids are really committed, awesome, fun-loving. Jais painted the sets in two hours once the Club built them and set them up. We worked on makeup and costumes for two days - slavishly, because they had missed four days, Thursday thru Sunday, because of the blizzard. Now these kids go on to compete in the District finals, and then State.

They remind me of the kids that used to hang out at the house back east; fun-loving, determined, educating themselves instead of waiting to be handed things.

Tammy came in Sunday morning at 630 AM. She left Wednesday to spend the weekend with her brother in Las Vegas - they are actually going to California for the weekend for a Renaissance Faire to perform with Thomas' troupe. So in a week's time, Tammy will have traveled from one coast to the other, and seen the places she has always wanted to see. She'll be back here next week to hang out with us. I will be able to spend more time with her then - getting ready for the Drama Club's performance Wednesday was so rushed. We did manage to make Taco Tuesday at the Husker Hub. Pat told me she will be decorating for Christmas this year - heh heh heh.

Mrs Schneider - the wife of the fellow who owns the Propane and Oil company here - came to talk to me yesterday. Her hubby had told her about the basement room where all of my Christmas ornaments are in boxes, waiting to be put up. She hasn't decorated in a couple of years either. I told her that the FFA kids will put up her decorations. She may decorate again this year.

No one had signed up to do the front bulletin board at school for December, so I talked to Cheryl (who loves snow and mischief as much as I) and we signed up to decorate it. Heh heh heh. I went online and found exactly what we wanted and had talked about putting up. We signed up as "the Cody Elves".

Folks who thought I would be homesick, would pine for the past, the warm and humid southern way of life, were so wrong. The people who move to places and don't fit in, who get homesick and want to return to a previous life, are the ones who puzzle me. I chose Cody not just because they have snow and cold winters - I could have found that anywhere out here. But because the people are so busy and so easy to inspire, because they have good hearts and are industrious and honest and just plain fun.

Yes, I would still love to bundle up the people I love and left behind and load them into my pickup and move them here - but that is because the people whom I love would fit right in, too. They would find their souls again here. They would be able to share their joy and not have it stifled, warped, cut, and wounded, by all of those nasty, selfish, and cruel people who hurt others for their own bitter and self-promoting pleasure. Yes, I miss my friends and my daughter, so very much. But just as I have found my happiness here, I want them to be here and finally, blissfully, happy too.

Homesick? Who has time to be homesick, when life here is so intense and living it is - at last - so much fun?

11/8/08

Blizzard Aftermath






Well, it was HUGE - 50 mph winds for two days, heavy snow that blew away and into drifts higher than my head. 300 power lines down, and power out to the west of us. Think of it - without electricityin the country, there's no power to pump water from the wells, either. So many ranches had not fired up their propane heaters yet this year - and their heaters wouldn't start when the storms came in. Thursday school was cancelled because of the wind and blowing snow; whiteout conditions most everywhere. I could barely see the corral, and not the hill behind it at all. Friday school was cancelled because so many children did not have power, did not have water. And yet - this sort of thing is normal, accepted, something one deals with as best one can. No sense of entitlement here, and no whining - suck it up and figure something out. You'd better, because no one is coming to 'save' you.

Folks will say I'm "lucky" because we bought in town, where the water tank flows no matter what, where the roads get plowed after the storm stops, where the power lines are buried and the power - for the most part - stays on. Lucky because if all else fails, the woodstove will heat and cook for us. Not lucky. Knowledgeable. Knowing what you want - and what you can handle, as well as what you can't - is paramount.

We spent the last two days setting up The Winter Village on the tabletop in front of the bay window. Snow, a town, a skating pond, even a small river over which the train trestle runs. I'm baking cookies for the Veteran's Day celebration; it is at the school but the whole town comes. Getting Tammy's bedroom ready - she is determined to get here as soon as possible. She was supposed to stop in Macon but kept right on after work; made it almost to Nashville last night. So she may be here tonight instead of tomorrow night! Oh to be young and vibrant and strong, and to not feel sore and achy the next day! I remember those days!


My friends are afraid that I won't like this weather, but I truly do. I don't like being afraid of slipping and falling, but I do love a real ripping winter, with snow and icicles and darkness and cold. It is my favorite time of year. I am a "winter person", I love the dark burgundies, greys, greens, blues, and blacks, and sparkling snowy whites and silvers. I love the deep introspection of the long nights, and the brilliant blue glow of the moon sparkling on snow and ice. I love the howling wind and biting ice pellets that sting my face. It makes me feel alive, happy, warm inside when it is cold outside. My only wish right now is that I had a horse that I could saddle and ride comfortably at a slow walk over my hills, punching through the ice-crusted snow, looking at the silent and glistening landscape, and watching the wildlife duck and hide. Ah, well, it will come. All things come.

11/2/08

Some Rot is Good

I worked and turned the compost pile yesterday, before I added the jack-o-lantern and straw from the scarecrow that I took down from Halloween. Black and crumbly dirt, rich and smelling of clean wet soil. A 'crust' had formed on part of it, of ash from the woodstove and sand, but when I shoved the shovel through it, what came tumbling out was loose and damp and rich. I could probably use it to fill my flats this winter to start my vegies! It looks and smells like the bags of potting soil you buy at the store. All of the kitchen compost; the eggshells, the rotted vegie peelings, have mixed with the sawdust and ash and coffee grounds, and the green cuttings from my discarded plants, and the horse poop, so that there is nothing recognizeable any more.
The raked up leaves are even starting to rot from less than a week ago!

I was puzzled when Nancy said that they raked their leaves - to take them to the dump. Take them anywhere? Why? Leaves are blankets of warmth and rot for plants; I mulched the red-twig dogwoods, the strip garden along the fence, the garden around the pond, and the two by the front porch, with them, stomped and wetted them down. That will hold water far better than the processed bag mulch, and will keep their little feet warm for next year. Maybe some folks don't think that they are as pretty as a clean-swept yard with summer-green twigs popping up everywhere? I don't understand the concept or the motivation. I like BIG luscious gardens, falling over themselves with green, and flowers, in the spring and summer; not little sticks struggling to survive in sand that drains water as swiftly as you pour it on. And a simple thing like dead leaves piled around them in fall will give me that. A few weeks ago, Enid saw me pouring coffee grounds on my roses and asked me why. Well, roses like acidity - they got enough of it when I was in the south surrounded by pine trees that covered them in the mulch of pine needles, but here in sandy soil, not so much.

I know most of the folks here probably have a sneaking suspicion that I am crazy, wanting to move here to grow things when it is so much easier to grow things in a Zone of "9" instead of a "6". It IS easier to grow things there - if the ordinances and neighbors aren't complaining, or if you can keep the invasive weeds down (a constant struggle - what is good for plants is GREAT for weeds!) or if you can keep away the mold and rot that hangs in the humid air like summer fog. My roses here have all lost their black spot and fuzzy white fungal growths, thanks to the drop in humidity. So SOME rot is good - but plants that rot while they are still trying to grow is NOT good. Once I get my garden system set up, I'll work far less here than I ever did there - because I won't be constantly spraying fungicides, trying to balance watering with discouraging mold.

Got a call from Boo today; she'll be starting her drive out here this Friday and should be here by Sunday night. We are soooo excited - she hasn't seen the house since before we moved in, in March. Oh, I send her pictures of what we've done, but still! Mike is busily making a bedframe off of the old iron headboard and footboard we found next to the garage; it should be ready by next weekend. Then we carry it upstairs, inflate the air mattress, and make the bed in the spare room upstairs.

Well, today I am going to the school to quietly organize my little office without interruption; it is so full and frustrating to deal with, everything shoved here and there, and so disorganized. I have a tackle box to organize the kids' meds - the plastic container there is so helter-skelter, it drives me NUTZ! - and I am going to dust and clean and redo a lot of stuff. I simply can't work in such a small and disorganized space! So I'll take my vitamins, drink my coffee, and get started.

10/28/08

Fall Evening

Just some quiet midweek thoughts tonight.

Today I started out late; Tammy and I were up last night IM'ing until late. I didn't hear Mike calling me from the bottom of the stairs; when he finally came up and woke me, it was 10 til 6. Yikes. So I came down, had my cup, and went back upstairs to get dressed. I skipped the Drama Club and went straight to work. Set up my computer and coffee and got to work. A few sudden challenges that I quickly overcame; communication breaking down that I repaired or called for help for - things went swimmingly all day. I'm finding my routine and getting into the rhythm of things, I think. Two more days of school and then all day Halloween off. Schools have the weirdest schedules! The teens and preteens are having a Halloween dance at the school at 8 PM Friday; which means that most of the late-night trick-or-treating will be curtailed. Seventh through twelfth grade having a dance together would be unheard of, impolitic, anywhere else in the world, but here it is just another community get-together.

Came home and intended to rake the yard but I was just tired. My feet and hands have been cold all day - unusual for me, and it was 60 deg outside, not cold at all! Donna asked if I was coming down sick but I don't THINK so - just feel cold. I warmed up this afternoon, though.

Tammy is so looking forward to her trip in two weeks; and a little scared too. I am looking forward to seeing her again; but am scared for her. OK it's stupid - by the time I was her age I'd made that trip 4 or 5 times, mostly by myself, but still... that's my BABY.

Looking forward to the dress-up Halloween night. Let Mike sit on the front proch and give out candy while I play wicked witch. No dry ice here - sigh - so no evil witch's brew. Oh well...

I will probably go to bed early tonight. My email box is full of jokes and election year stuff, but nothing personal so no hurry to read it all. It is so silent here; the stars are out and look close enough to touch, and no breeze is stirring the trees. It is only 7 PM but the air is still and peaceful, like midnight. Lovely. 70 degree temps tomorrow and Thursday... then a little cooler but no rain or high winds. The fall air smells so wonderful; no pine scents or leaves burning, but woodsmoke from our and others' woodstoves spice the evening air like cinnamon.

10/26/08

Wind, Weather, and Horses

We got a nice windblown-down deadfall this week; it fell off of a tree in the schoolyard and (after asking permission) I drove the pickup truck down and loaded it in. It was so huge that Mike had to sit in the bed and hold it down. Yesterday we filled the woodbox with it!

The weather stations said it would be in the 20s last night; but right now (6 AM) it is only 37, but windy.

Nancy came by yesterday; we talked about all sorts of things. She seemed anxious to know if the wind bothered us. Wind? It blows here almost all of the time; sometimes light and frivolously, sometimes - most times! - strongly and purposefully. One expects wind in an area that is so hilly, though. It drives the fine sand up under the doors and into the window frames, and has carved the northernmost post on the verandah like a sandblaster. Still and all, it is similar to the winds I had in the hills of TX and NM - I was caught once in a huge dust devil up around Santa Fe that knocked me to the ground and sent my camping goods flying! So even though I haven't experienced wind like this in a long time, it doesn't bother me. It was kinda irritating this morning when I was loading the woodstove and the precise and forceful angle of the wind was actually blowing the smoke back DOWN the chimney, though! Argh. Stop that.

Nancy has been trapping cats in town; some kittens but mostly adults. The shelter won't take adult cats. I asked her to bring me one. I feel bereft without a barn cat, something hanging about that occasionally demands to be picked up and cuddled. Sasha likes to nuzzle, but only sometimes, and usually only when she wants something, and she doesn't do it for long. Plus she is far too big to be a lap dog! Phydeaux is solely Mike's dog; he will sleep with him all night and follow him around all day.

Nancy really came out to look at Lake. She wants to put her down but doesn't have the heart. We had to traipse all the way to the west gate crossover to find her and the other horses. When we got there, Lake looked at her like, "What do YOU want?" Nancy checked her feet and determined that they needed trimming. I joked with her that Mike and I were trying to figure out how to make hoof covers for her feet to keep the ice from forming between her hooves and the frog of her foot. She can't feel it and it could cripple her. I told her we thought about cutting up one of our blue tarps and making velcro bands around it - can't you just see the neighbors driving by - "WHAT is on that horse's hoofs? BLUE BOOTS??" I hung out with Willie and Snip and Pretty Boy to kinda keep them away from Nancy and Lake; they will crowd around someone, anyone, that gives Lake attention. They are starting to get their winter coats and look fluffy. The other three will be gone by the end of next week; back to their little corral in the middle of town. It will be better for them, especially Willie - he is still scrawny and needs to be in an enclosure for the winter.

So things are settling down for the winter here. The low tonight is predicted to be 15. I don't know whether to believe it or not... and here it is just a number anyway. As long as the humidty stays low, it is as comfortable at 20 as it is at 50 or 60, especially when the sun is shining. We've got the candy for Halloween, and I still have tomatoes to dehydrate, and a pumpkin to carve, but otherwise it is getting quieter and quieter... even with the all-pervasive wind.

10/23/08

No Snow just rain... sigh

OK, there were a few flurries today, but nothing that stuck. Down south and east of us, had snow; not a lot, but at least it stuck. Sigh.

This morning at 6:45 AM I went to the Drama club's practice for the high school at the community center in town. These kids are really good. I'll be helping them with makeup and costumes - I've already emailed Thomas in Vegas to see if he has some contacts there for what we'll need. Gone are the days I could just hop in the car and drive to Acme to pick up what I needed. The closest place to walk-in is in Rapid, about three hours away. So we'll find what we need online or wherever we can.

Had a success at work; the filing I had to do for the state was stymied by a simple problem that the secretary in Lincoln solved by tapping a button on her keyboard. Pow - put everything in, submitted, done. After the training from our online data managing group yesterday morning, and the DVD I got from the State, it still was not simple - but just getting to know the process and getting the paperwork straight and THEN filing it neatly will be a help. I HATE flying blind.
I'm making recoerds of everything I learn and everything I do to not just remind me what needs to be done but so that if I am not there, anyone can pick up where I left off.

Came home and loaded up the woodstove again. The wind has died down to 15 mph, but the damp cold is pervasive. Tomorrow is a half-day and I will take Mike to Valentine to pick up his meds and to get a few things for the house, and of course the Halloween candy. Got to get the spiderwebs up, and carve the pumpkin yet. Well, this weekend it should be in the 60s again.

10/22/08

Snow??? Hope so, but...

Well it was supposed to start last night, but all we got was some 50 mph winds out of the North; cold and hard and cutting. Now they're saying maybe some after midnight, tomorrow, with 4 inches tomorrow night. THAT should make the football game interesting! Although the highs are supposed to be in the fifties Friday again; the snow should be gone.
There's propane in the tank; about 16% still. We just set the thermostat for 65 degrees; so it won't get too cold in here once the fires in the woodstove burn out at night. I'm the firestarter in the family; the woman who used to build the three-day, pouring-rain fires in the yard, who started a fire in a tropical storm that dried out all the camping gear and cooked our meals, should be the one to start a healthy fire that can warm the house! LOL But this house is pretty tight; built solidly, and even after it was let go for a while we were able to get it sealed again. It's windows and doors are tighter and stronger, and walls are more solid, than the house we owned in SC - and that house was newer by about 70 years!
I've been canning still; tomatoes and green tomatoes, and dehydrating cabbage. There are tomatoes lined up in rows of five on the counter, still turning red. Raking the yard and packing leaves around the tombstones - yup, we have tombstones and the coffin in front of the house! The scarecrow from the front porch is doing double duty as a mummy, and one of my ceramic skulls is perched on top; we've run lights to it and into the skull so it looks really creepy. The trees still have golden leaves on them in the east yard, so pretty. The red twig dogwood by the lane is glowing pink, too.






I like my new job as secretary for the school and am having lots of fun doing it. It is hard not having records saved from before, though; and all of the reports that have to be filed with the state just for food service boggle the mind! But I'll be going down to the community center to help with the drama club (at 6:45 in the morning!) and that should be fun too. And Tammy's due to come out in November; I can't wait to show her around!

Still busy as I've ever been, but having lots of fun... and looking forward to the snow again!

10/12/08

Yes I Am Selfish

It's raining all weekend, that cold drizzly rain that makes your bed sing to you like a background siren, a comforting escapist hole against the world. Rainy days make me pensive.

I've dropped in on some friends this morning, in a blogworld sense. They are still ranting or worrying about who is the best candidate for President, why my friend Joe Wilson is an incompetent Congressman and human being, and needs to be replaced, how the populace has suddenly realized that Congressman Harry Brown is a lying sneaking pandering and self-righteous moron, what they feel and think about the fiscal collapse of the Union...

Yawn.

I used to be a part of all that. People don't understand why I stepped out and back and away from it all, why I want nothing more to do with it, why I won't go gangbusters ever again trying to convert the ignorant or the innocent to the logical and socially responsible platforms of this, that, and the other. More - they can't see HOW I could, when I was, in their words, "so damned good at it".

The fact is that I slowly came to the realization that people in the main are determined to be ignorant, determined to be emotional, determined to sacrifice themselves for any and every cause, and expect everyone else to do the same. Not being of the Kenyesian persuasion, the self-sacrificing hordes who think that they have a right to be in everyone else's lives, that everyone should sacrifice themselves for the good of the whole, I stepped back, out, and away. I'm done.

I am tired of directing the minds and thoughts and emotions and reactions of fools who need to be told at every turn what is real, honorable, good, and just. I have a disabled husband and an auto-immune disease that weakens me if I push too hard. I have an excuse, but it goes deeper than that. The truth is that I got tired of the viciousness, the lies, the snide remarks, even the phony sympathy-without-helpfullness that I encountered. I refuse to argue with them, defend my thoughts and positions with them, while neglecting the one thing that is more important to me than anything else - my happiness.

Yes that IS selfish. I cheerfully admit it. I seek a quiet, uplifting, emotionally relaxing and physically expressive life. "Kicking against the pricks" is futile, because then there are just - more pricks. Those who are determined to be pricks, who want and need to argue, to shove their opinions down everyone else's throats, bore me. They always have. But their insistence on stomping on others brought out the Don Quixote in me, the defender of the innocents, the Vox Populi in me. No more. There are too many self-determinedly ignorant, arrogant, and obnoxious pricks in the world, and too many permanently innocent, permanently needy folks along with them, for me to exhaust myself repetitively trying to educate or save them all. As most of my friends know, when I say, "God I'm BORED!" - things are about to change. Well, these types of folks began to bore me to distraction. So it was time for a change.

It is vitally important that one seek one's own happiness. I have found mine. Of course it isn't perfect. If I won a lottery, I wouldn't go for all of the immediate and fast-passing pleasures that others do - I'd buy my garage, greenhouse, chickens and cows straightaway instead of planning for them. But my new and very fun job, my new house and property, my new and much-longed-for lifestyle, have all brought me closer to where I want to be for the rest of my life.

The wind is blowing, out of the Northeast and HARD. The rain is whisking across the hills, and the clouds are tumbling just above them. The leaves on the maples and hawthornes are glowing golden. I have things to do, and friends coming over later in the evening for some simple board games, chess, and fun. I love where I am, what I'm doing, and who I'm doing it with. Not for me, the upheavals and passions and rages of the helpless or the mindless any more. Not for me, listening to the endless yammering about the next American Idol, be he from the phony television show or the phony election races. They can say whatever they want, now - I'm not a part of it and never want to be again. There is more to life than that. I've always known it, and I can finally live it. Selfish? You bet.

10/4/08

Yeah, But Who Eats Worms?

My friends all know that I am NOT a morning person. Grumble grumble grumble don't wake me don't bother me, sun's not even up yet grumble grumble grumble. But lately I have been getting up earlier and earlier, long before the sun, getting up before a bird chirps in the trees outside my window. Last year I HAD to get up early to get to my job 40 miles away on time every day. Driving in the dark, a second cup of coffee in my hand, grumbling at the world, calling my other friends and chatting because they had to get up early too, might as well be miserable together.



Now it's different, though. Like I told my buddy Kimburrkay, I get out of bed every morning now like it was Christmas. I've got lots to do and daylight is getting shorter and shorter. Soon the wild turkeys' lives will be in danger. Heh heh heh. And there might be other critters I will need to attend to.



Of course, my new job requires that I be at work at 7:30 AM. That is not a struggle - a short 5 minute walk away. I can drink two cups of coffee before I hit the shower. As the days grow cooler and wetter, maybe even snowy, I'll still walk it though it might take me a couple of minutes longer. Last night I stayed up downloading my pictures of the Homecoming Day, and a little cowboy logo to disk to play with at work. This is going to be fun. Everyone knows my motto, "If you can't have fun, why bother?" But I guess my idea of fun is a little different from many - creativity, inspiration of others, having fun and enjoying life, putting my heart into whatever I do, is my stock in trade.

So this morning it was Saturday, and my eyes popped open at 4:49. Well, there's a lot to do - pump out, then scrub out the pond, winterize it by getting it cleaned out and bringing in the pump for the winter. I dread getting caught by my unawares with cold weather, and I surely do NOT want to be scrubbing that pond when it is cold.



The pumpkin seeds are dry and need to be put away. I am anxious to carve that other pumpkin for the front porch, but don't want to do it too early and have it rot, so I am restraining myself. It has a flat side, perfect for what I want to do. There's bread to bake again, and laundry to do. I want to get down into the ceramic shop and play some more, work on some stuff. Have to check on the sunflower seeds, see if they are dried out enough, and get them ready; and am debating whether or not to clean and paint the birdfeeder to hold the smaller seeds.



Tammy is back at the old house still, cleaning it up, and has pulled up a lot of my cement border stones. She has a brilliant idea - she is putting them in the bed of her little truck to make the drive out here in November, in case she has a little trouble getting through between us and her brother's house in Vegas. On the way back, she'll drop them back at our Cody house. She knows how much I liked those cement border stones! And of course I know just where I can put them...



The air smells like rain comin', so I guess I'd better get started. I don't think my bedroom window will be open for too many more days, but I am enjoying the scents of the changing weather outside. Yes, I am an early bird now, getting ready for whatever comes this year...

9/27/08

Quiet Saturday

Well, after the Homecoming parade, picnic, and game yesterday, Pat's birthday was down at the Hub. I got home at 1:30 AM, but got right back up at 6:30 AM as always. We are out of bread, so I needed to bake more. If changes happen the way I hope this week (further, deponent sayeth not!) I might have my time cut shorter than ever, so today I am baking two batches - one whole wheat and one oat batch.

Today is our 26th wedding anniversary. Mike is cleaning the 'stuff' out of his closet to go up into the attic - suitcases, an army cot, all sorts of things under the list of 'don't need now, will need later or someday'.

It was chilly this morning, and poor little Phydeaux's old bones just couldn't take it. So I put him in his turtleneck sweater, which of course he hates. But he has stopped his shivering and is nestled on Mike's bed. He dug his way under the comforter and sheet. It feels good to me - lovely and cool - and I am quite comfortable. Sasha is of course a walking rug - but she got so jealous when we put on Phydeaux's sweater that apparently she wants one of her own! LOL Dogs.

Looking forward to the real cooler weather....

9/24/08

Beans Tonight

Ummmmm. I love baked beans.
But I don't just pour 'em out of a can, uh-uh, no way. First I fry up about a pound of those ends and pieces of bacon til it is crispy. Then I toss in some onion, and brown it. Then I mix up my sauce - I can't tell you what is in it of course, but it is sweet and tomato-ey with a peppery spicy tang to it. I cook that a little bit til it gets almost like caramel, then add the beans, stir well, and either bake or simmer til done. With cornbread or home fries - you have a meal.

There used to be (and maybe still is) a brand of beans that comes close to mine called (I think) Big John's. It started with some of the same stuff I do, but somewhere along the way they lost that additional bite, that flavor tang. Maybe its all that bacon grease; who knows?

So since we went to town this AM, I fried up some of those end pieces to make bacon-egg-and-cheese sandwiches (with homemade oat bread, toasted) for a quick lunch - and used the rest of the bacon to do the beans.

Think I'll make a BIG pot for the town picnic Friday, and see how it goes over. They have to know the new girl can cook, after all! And maybe some itty bitty corn muffins, too....

9/23/08

The Onions! Are Up!!

Yup, there they were this morning. After an inch of rain last night (I'm surprised any hit the ground, the wind was blowing so hard) I had little green stems, about half an inch high, popping up in 2 neat little 25 foot long rows.

Ummmmm. Onions!

I finally managed to get out on the roof of the porch and paint my bedroom window frames. Then I had to repaint the basement door one more time; it really looks good. Mike was kidding me about the red rectangles on the door; I told him that since the door and the house were white, and on the north ( incoming snowdrift) side, we might need to find that door! Being very fastidious, he put a good strong molding around the door too, to help seal it against the weather.
So I painted that red, too. You can see it even behind the storm door. 'Way kewl.

I made sausage and gravy and biscuits and green beans for lunch, and then I cleaned up - really scrubbed - the kitchen. I love the smell of Ajax powder; so clean and 'bleachy'.

I went out and scrubbed that area rug one last time. The smell is gone at last. I need to hang it now instead of having it spread out on the pallet on the sawhorses and spray it down really really well one last time tomorrow; that should do it for the smell and the colors. It practically glows now.

Tomorrow we have to go to Valentine to pick up Mike's meds. We also need some cash - it's Homecoming on Friday, and we need to go to the town picnic and then the game. The picnic is free but the game is $2 apiece. Plus Pat and Cathy and I are going out again this weekend for Pat's birthday... I need to bake some more bread, there's only 2 loaves and some rolls in the freezer; I'll do that Thursday I guess.
So busy...
But - the onions are up!

Work and storms

Well, yesterday was supposed to rain, first in the AM and then in the afternoon/evening, and by golly it did! (I love Weather Underground - FAR more accurate than the Weather Channel -who diss us in the flyover states- or local advisories.)

So I was down in the basement all morning, testing and repairing Christmas streetlights (look, the Village takes a whole DAY to set up alone, with the train and all) and reorganizing my craft bucket while I was doing laundry. Ever wash 'snow'? well, my snow blanket had to be washed, and the miniature skating pond had to be finished, and I am working on a ceramic water feature for Enid (shhhh) using seashells and ceramic pixies. I've got all the 'plug-in' lights for my ceramics in one central place, as well as all of the feathers and ready-to-use decorations for the mistletoe balls and baby wreaths. I then put together another wizard and a dragon.

Then I made a big lunch, and carried the old door outside to set up for Mike to work on. We have a lot of old doors and trim and boards to play with, and the door into the basement from the outside needed replacing. It faces North, the side that takes the most wind, sand and snow in the winter. So we had a nice solid door downstairs, with good sturdy panels - all it needed was to have a new doorknob and some faults repaired and to be planed and sanded down a little. So I put it on the back of the pickup for him(wide area, easy to stand next to and work on), and Lake was in the corral looking depressed. I got the curry brush and went into the corral and started brushing her. Within 5 minutes I was surrounded by horses! Everyone wanted attention too. I felt like a teacher in a schoolyard - no, wait your turn, Lake gets hers first! Pretty Boy and Snip kept nuzzling my neck and elbows and back, while Willie just stood there patiently. There are honeybees everywhere, and a group of them decided it was time to harass the horses. There were four that stayed around Snip, and they were flying toward his legs, butt-first, to sting him! There was some kind of residue on the horses; like thick sticky pollen, and all I can figure is that the horses found a honeybee nest and had plowed through it. It was a little difficult getting them all brushed with them stamping and biting at the honeybees, but I did it. They all got their 'love' and neck cuddles and - then I went back to the laundry and the basement.

Mike called me when he was done and we took the door to the basement doorway and hung it. Then I had to take a break from the basement work - the door needed paint. So I got my white paint and the red for the trim and went to work. By the time I had gotten the first coat on, it started to cloud up - from the southwest, big black dark clouds. Arrgh. So I put the second coat on, and scurried back inside.

The wind picked up to 40 mph, and the warm air inside the house dissipated quickly as the cold wind blew through it. It was lovely and cool inside, and blustery and stormy outside. The lightning was incessant and the thunder rumbled across the hills, echoing. We got a little hail for about 20 minutes, and then the rain came. The wind was blowing so hard out of the West that it made a mist out of the rain! After about two hours, the rain stopped, the thunder faded into the east, and all was silent except for the slow drip-drip of water from the trees.

So today I'll put another coat of paint on the door, and drain the water barrels from last night. It is lovely and cool and clear this morning, 63 degrees, and no rain is predicted for at least 5 more days.

9/20/08

Best Laid Plans

Well, I WAS going to paint my bedroom window today. Fortunately it is big enough that I can crawl out onto the porch roof from the window, and even though it is slanted I can stand on it and work.

But today the turkeys were back, and a stray dog came up into the yard to chase them, and they went up into the trees. Tammy wanted pictures of her Dad in the corral, so I took them this morning while I was out taking pictures of the turkeys in the trees. Then we emptied the horse trough that I had brought up to the porch two months ago when it was so hot - Mike can't swim any more, but I wanted him to be able to sit on the porch and at least be able to put his feet in the water when he got hot. The sump pump put the water out to the poplar and ponderosa pines and the red dogwoods, while I watered the rest of the yard. Then... we decided to tackle the woodburning stove.




It is a cast iron stove, and as you can see there was a leak up in the roof that dripped down onto the stove - or, it would have, were it not for the cast iron pot on it. Unfortunately the pot had apparently overflowed onto the stove a couple of times, and underneath the pot was rusted some, too. The bottom pipe was rusted pretty badly, so it had to be replaced - not a fun thing to do! - and the cast iron would have to be cleaned.


Now, I've owned cast iron all my life, and the one thing I know about it is that, as heavy as it is, it rarely rusts through. You can take a rusty piece of cast iron, wire brush or steel-wool it down, and then oil it and heat it and it will come back black and shiny. Of course it takes a lot of effort!


Of course the pipe wasn't cast iron, so it had to be replaced. We'd bought the pipe, we just weren't looking forward to wriggling it out of place, and wriggling the new one in. There was a bird's nest in the cast iron flue, so we cleaned that out and reused the flue - not hard; drill two holes in the pipe and insert the flue. As rusty as the pipe was, the flue wasn't damaged at all. I thought it odd, though - we've had two fires in the stove since we got here, and the birdsnest didn't burn up! Another nice thing to see was that there was no creosote in the pipe, all the way to the roof vent 12 feet up. If a fire has very little smoke and the fire doesn't have a lot of green, damp, or 'oil' wood like pine, it will burn cleanly and not leave the residue that starts chimney fires and burns down houses.


It took us about two hours all told to do it - and then I spent another three hours scrubbing out the pot and lid, and seasoning them in the oven with oil, and then scrubbing down the stove and oiling it, too! So here's the finished project:

We got on the roof and "buttered" the roof seal with heat caulk; it had been tarred in place but the tar had cracked, hence the leak.

But we weren't done yet! D'ya see that little door in the wall to the right of the stove? That door is probably one of the coolest things I've ever seen, because it opens onto a wood box that has been built onto the back of the house. So I got the wheelbarrow and filled it with all different sizes of wood from the pile next to the garage, and then brought them over and stacked them neatly into the enclosed wood box. Mike helped me by breaking up the twigs into small pieces and putting them in a bag that we keep in the woodbox so that they are readily to hand. No spiders or other late night surprises in the house because of the wood indoors, and dry wood that is readily available without having to go outside, especially in snow.

If it doesn't rain tomorrow, Maybe I can get to that window and paint!

9/19/08

Turkeys, Paint, and Tacos

Here's what we saw first thing this morning in the garden -
The turkey chicks are getting BIG - ready to crown a dinner or two. I've been putting corn out to keep them around; now I'll aggressively put it out the last 3-4 weeks to help sweeten the meat and fatten the little darlings. I hate the feathers but I do love the meat!
And I did get up on the ladder and onto the bay window overhang to paint; now my house looks like a candy cane and seems so clean and pretty. It will make a perfect backdrop for my Christmas lights! See the scarecrow on the front porch? The garden where the turkeys were is on the right, right behind the East side porch, which we call "the verandah".
And since it's Mike's day to cook, he has planned tacos, burritos, and refried beans. This and the Hub are about as close as we get to "fast food" any more!
We went to Valentine yesterday, and the road back was so beautiful with all of the leaves turning bright colors. We want to go down to the river this weekend and take pictures of the glorious fall colors here. The reds and yellows are iridescent!
But right now, I've got to go turn off the sprinkler on the onions and get washed up for dinner!

9/17/08

Fear

I am NOT afraid of heights! (Yes I am.) Am NOT. I am afraid of falling, which is NOT the same thing.

I happily worked the night shift on computers in a 48 story building, and used to go up to the top to look out over the city to watch the snow come in like a rolling wave. Once we scurried up to the top to watch the newspaper warehouse burn, down the street from us - all those heavy giant rolls of newspaper could not be put out for hours, and it was awesome to watch, especially because it was snowing -hard! - at the time. I wished I had a camera, the shots were just amazing, clouds of snow and burning paper whirling about... I danced on the roof, loving the height and the beauty of the night. I love going up in a glass elevator on the outside of a building.

When I was a kid I was the original "yard ape", always up a tree and climbing higher. I felt safe in trees - lots of branches, I was a tiny thing, and I could climb higher than anyone else. When the wind blew I would hang on and rock to and fro with my tree...

But going up on a ladder scares the bejesus out of me. Long narrow ladder. Wide load butt. Topheavy front end. Paint can in one hand, paint brush in the other. Big flat feet that catch on rungs going up, slide around them going down. Why do they make rungs round? Good. Lord. I have to paint those window frames and the trim while it is still pretty out. Have. to. The house looks unfinished. I'm all there is, the only one, to paint or climb. The windows are too small to be climbed out of. It's all up to me. If I could, I'd lash a rope around my waist and rappel down the house, but I can't. So it's the ladder or nothing. I'm not afraid, I'm not, I'm not. (Yes I am.)

Remember - three rungs up over the edge at all times. Remember - angle it outward, the wider the angle the less chance of slippage. Who made roof tiles so slippery? Who thought gutters should be so fragile? Watch the window, idiot.

OSHA like the idiots they are say no ladder should be climbed after it is raised until it is tied off first. Tied off? Who's up there to tie it off? How did they get there without a ladder? OSHA. Paugh. What a typically brilliant, totally useless idea.

OK, my hands are gripping the window frame like it was my last dollar. I can't paint like this. Let go. Let. GO. Don't drop the brush. Don't drop the bucket. Don't drop the brush INTO the bucket. Put the bucket on the roof overhang. Careful - it's slanted. There. Paint out to the left. Good. Paint out to the right. Good. Paint very carefully in the middle. Good. Now climb back down and move the ladder three more feet and do it again. WAIT - don't forget the bucket!

I am not afraid of heights. Am. NOT.

9/16/08

Impatience

I knew better, of course, but I had to go check to see if the onions were peeking up through the mulch today. It will be at least two weeks before they get big enough to cut; and we may get a frost by then. But that's OK, they'll be back in the spring. They're not up yet. A watched onion never sprouts, I guess!

Almost time to cut the sunflower heads for the seeds. Once dried, I'll save the largest head for seeds for next year, and shell and use the rest for bread additions, even nuts in cookies and on top of casseroles. It's the simple things we like. Like the bookcase Mike built this week, of old discarded boards that were on a shelf in the barn, the boards that perfectly match the rustic and rough grey wood of the walls of the family room; it looks like it has always been there.

I can't dig the horseradish until the first killing frost. That great big patch out there is calling me like a siren, though. There are so many things I want to try with it; not just making my own sauce (I do love the extra bite of horseradish on my rare meat), but seeing if I can make the sinus cures and muscle rub with it as well. Fascinating stuff, horseradish. Who knew? I've never grown it before; the clay soil in SC just wasn't conducive to it. But here in the sand it grows wildly, even almost joyfully, springing up thickly, its wide leaves waving and rustling in the wind.

But something I've never read about and am thinking about - you know, you can make capascin oil, from ground dried hot peppers mixed with vegie oil and water, to keep animals and bugs off of plants; it is a natural insecticide and deer don't like it either. But I'm wondering if the flavenoids in the horseradish root will do the same? I've made up my mind to experiment with it. The gophers don't seem to like the roots much, they avoid the patch; and although the grasshoppers and cabbage moths seem to like the leaves, they don't seem to handicap the plants any. Still, it is worth a shot - use what you have.

Working on cutting up old clothes for a quilt pattern right now. So many of this size, so many of that size. I made quilts when I was a young mother the first time, so long ago that it has taken a while to come back to me - but it has. Why cut up perfectly good material into tiny squares or strips and resew it? Because, out of something old and faded or outgrown, or otherwise useless, I can make something warm and pretty and uniquely - me.

For some reason Lake has been spending a lot of time in the corral; she seems to like our company more and more. When I took a break, I went out and brushed her again today. When I am old and decrepit, and can't do anything but wander around and eat, I hope someone feeds me Oreos and brushes my knots out too. Her constant presence of course has increased my supply of readily-available horse poop; it's time to rake out the barns and corral again, add it to the compost pile. I dug into it yesterday to dump in some potato peels and egg shells, and the still-green-but-dying petunias from the pots; everything was turning black and really working. No poop smell, just dirt and rot. Can't wait until the leaves start falling - more mulch for the pile! Scraping it off, digging more in, digging it down deep then repiling it, is keeping it warm and active. Temps are in the 80's all this week, with 50's at night; good for rot.

I just love how things can be recycled over and over; green to poop to green again, seeds to flowers to more seeds and more food, maybe even horseradish to help things grow. Old clothes instead of being sold for a quarter or thrown away, turned into something useful again. Watching and waiting for the natural cycle of growth and death and rebirth is so like the advancing season of fall, when things start to slow a little and one can think about the changes, plan for them.

I am learning patience again.

9/13/08

Rain and Cold, Oatmeal and FIRE!

Yesterday wasn't really COLD, but it was wet. Wet all day, a slow and drizzly rain without wind.

Oatmeal was on sale a few days ago, 10 lbs for $10. I snatched it up, right next to the 25 lbs of sugar for $12 ($5 off), more honey and raisins. So yesterday morning I made a huge batch of oatmeal/raisin/pecan cookies while I was puttering about the kitchen. I will buy things on sale - IF I normally use them. And in the fall and winter, I use a lot of oats; must be the Irish in me, but I LOVE oats. I made a huge casserole of garlic pasta, Italian sausage, and limas in my Alfredo sauce, and that went well with the tomato/basil bread and cookies.

While I was preparing lunch, the bus went by from the school, loaded with football players. Oh, crap, I had forgotten about the game! So I went out to Mike's shop, told him lunch was ready, and reminded him of the football game. We ate lunch and went. It is only five blocks to the football field. It was great fun; everyone was there, and the bank put on their annual brat grill (free to all) but we had already eaten. The Color Guard from the American Legion presented the colors, and even in the rain all cowboy hats, baseball caps, and even helmets were off the heads and over the hearts of everyone there. We sat in the drizzling rain and cheered the team. I had gotten a heads-up from my friend that THIS was probably not the game to watch, as this visiting team always beats our Cowboys. They are some very big boys, and Mike and I discussed the need for our local fellas to maybe switch to pork chops, collards, and cornbread for a dietary supplement. In the programs we were handed at the gate, there were the names of every single player - and his parents.

Oh, yeah, they don't play the games at night, but at one o'clock in the afternoon. I like this better - no sitting in stands as the sunset blinds the players, and no slowly freezing to one's seat as the sun goes down and the nighttime kicks in. We don't have a large set of bleachers here - but it's ok, everyone brings chairs or sits in their cars facing the field, and blowing their car horns on good plays. We don't have built-in bathrooms, but semi-permanent portapotties, and no one complains. We are a small town and no one demands anything, because they know who pays for it and who has to take care of it.

So anyway, we went home after the game. The house was very chilly, damp from all the rain in the air. So I fired up the cast iron stove. Now, this stove is small, the firebox can only take wood that is 22 inches long or less, and it sits in a corner of the family room on a brick pedestal. But with a pile of twigs to start, and three small logs, and some careful adjusting of the flue and intakes, I had a rich red glow from it in half an hour, that lasted until we went to bed at 11. With the placement of an oscillating fan in the doorway, the whole house was at 70 degrees all night, and even this morning.

Today I'll put my onions in, and tonight there is a 'smoker' at the fire station. This is a big barbeque they have every year, $10 a head, all you can eat, that lasts from 5 PM until 1 AM, beer extra. BEER? Yes, BEER - you see, the folks here are grownups and don't need a nanny government telling them that they are not mature enough to drink. The fire department has to pay $40 to renew their liqour license annually. LIQUOR LICENSE? Yes, that's what I said. Again, no Eastern cramp about "what if" or "we have to MAKE them responsible" - since they are all adults, they are assumed to BE responsible. And - gasp - they ARE. Imagine that.

As we slide into fall, the smell of the woodsmoke from our fireplace, the sounds, activities, and smells of fall are everywhere. And we are loving it.

9/9/08

The Poop on Walking Onions

YAY!! The Walking Onions are in!!!

Booo... I haven't dug their bed yet. Dangit. Oh, well, they'll keep for a couple of days as long as I keep them cool...

Walking onions - those heirloom buggers that actually produce bulbs at the TOP of the stems, not the traditional root crops. No Vidalias here - the soil is too alkaline, and sandy to boot. Of course, the winter weather would nosh all over any sweet soft onions anyway.

But walkers - man, have I waited to try to grow these! Non-hybrid, which means that I can save any production and replant without worrying about any silly extra stuff getting in the way of yearly production. Long keepers, too; up to 12 months if harvested and stored correctly. And the best part - this fall I can use whatever comes up as green onions (betcher I'm gonna dehydrate those too); and then when the winter snows hit and they die back, I simply wait til spring when they will pop back out again.

They are called "walking onions" because when the tops fall over with the bulbs attached, they plant themselves where they fall if they are not harvested. So they will 'walk' all over a garden if not maintained.

I DID manage to get one of the pole barns and the main corral raked up yesterday, so I have horse poop in a pile, along with my kitchen compost, right by the garden gate. I soaked it for three hours yesterday. It should be working and getting 'hot' even in the cool weather - lotta green, lotta bug activity, lotta brown material and the manure, mixed together and sopping. So by spring till-in I should have some good water retention as well as nitrogen working. There will be residual calcium, too, from all of those eggshells.

Finally living in a place where one can pile up horse poop without comment and complaint from the neighbors! Of course, once it starts working, the only thing it will smell like is - dirt. I've thought about making those cool little manure animals for decoration and fertilizer, since I have the molds and kiln and all - but 1) I'm selfish about my poop, and 2) I don't think the smell of baking manure would be too - um, inspirational!

Hi to Blondie and Casey, and much love. You guys would love it here! I'd ship the bread but it doesn't have preservatives so it might not hold up well! Guess you'll have to come out to get a taste... grin.

9/7/08

What a Sweet Smell!

It is dismal outside, cool and cloudy and drizzling rain. A perfect day to harvest the basil and thyme seeds and leaves. A quick stripping, and into the dehydrator the leaves go, into small 'snack' Ziploc bags the seeds go, for next year's tantalizing and spicy harvest.

Today is Sunday Chicken Buffet day at the Hub; as the leaves dehydrate and fill the air with their sweet and spicy odor, we'll go down and socialize. Yummers.

Doing laundry too, nice smell from the basement of clean linens, rising up thru the basement door and wafting on the slight breeze from the dryer vent outside.

And to top it all off I dug out my "fall" decorations; they have been tightly wrapped in plastic bags and boxed up since last winter, along with the cinnamon/clove potpourri I sprinkle liberally about this time of year. Ummmm...

All these smells make me want to make some spicy tomato/basil bread, to get ready for holiday baking already. The house just glows with soft lights and intoxicating, comforting scents. Ahhhhhh. A perfect "gloomy" day.

9/4/08

Sigh.

Well, it has been a busy two days. Pickled some and dehydrated some yesterday, then helped Mike load the pickup with not one but two loads of trash for the dump (Wednesday is Town Dump Day). Then I went to a meeting in Valentine; while I was there I got a library card.

Today I started in immediately this morning, canning the last of the pickles and making more bread. Today's bread was light and moist and poufy, rising pretty quickly and prettily, and came out with a flaky crust and a soft interior. I made noodles to go under the last of the beef stew for lunch. Then after lunch I sat down to rest.

20 minutes later my right shoulder that had been grumbling since the dump trips finally, truly started to ache. Sigh. So I helped Mike tarp the wood pile ( it is supposed to rain tonite) and put everything away. We walked the yard with the puppies and talked about what we were going to do with the stuff around his shop, still piled on the North side.

Barb came up and told us that there was frost at their ranch this morning in the valley. Frost already! We didn't get any here - their ranch straddles the SD line north of us. But still....
I checked on the sunflowers; they are doing well and in two more weeks I should have scads of seeds. As long as we don't get a killing frost they should be OK.

I stll have to clean the kitchen ( I am a messy pickler and baker!) and grind the dehydrated tomaotes into powder. When it rains tomorrow I should have everything pretty much done and can look at the book I got from the library. It goes deeply into the plants, soil makeup, and water resources around here. I need to have an idea of the different things I need to look at - like soil acidity/alkalinity, etc - and figure out how to deal with the 'noxious weeds' here. I'd rather starve them out than try to fight them continually!

So tomorrow I can rest this silly shoulder. Maybe!

9/2/08

Weird Day

Well, I had made a huge pot of beef stew this morning (we eat our big meal at lunch now), and had been out in the pasture gathering up deadfalls for the woodpile. I was just about to sit down to lunch with some of that homemade bread, when I noticed the oddest thing - there were 10 students with a guy dressed in jeans and a tie standing outside my pasture gate. I put my food up (Sasha is not above eating off of a plate on the counter) and wandered outside. It was the HS class from across the street, learning about plants. I invited them into the pasture where there are lots of different plants - everything from yucca and cactus to grasses and black-eyed susans - and we talked about weather and soil types and how they influence zygonomic and rhizonomic reproduction. The teacher was thrilled that a mere passer-by put so much emphasis on plant life, and was as excited as he to share that knowledge.

Yeah, I know, everyone thinks I just like plants. No one knows that I have studied everything from plant structure and flavenoids to plant reproduction, alkaline vs acidic soils, and even CO2 uptake by plant life. I may have started life with a green thumb - but I have to know WHY things work the way that they do. That's why I want to put rabbits in my greenhouse - not only do they provide one of the most perfect organic fertilizers on the planet, but because rabbits in a greenhouse can contribute up to 300% of the necessary CO2 for plant 'green-up'.

Anyway, it was a good day, and they will be back now that they have permission to come into the pasture and explore and learn about plant life.

I finally ate my lunch an hour later, and then went out and cut up that firewood, did two loads of laundry, and picked up that wire fencing that was strewn about in the east garden and propped it next to the garage. Whew. Guess I'll have to pickle and bake tomorrow - plus I have a Community Development meeting in Valentine tomorrow night. Sigh.

Cold Front

My brother's house in Soda Springs, ID, got 3 inches of snow yesterday, from the same cold front that swooped though here last night. Of course he lives in the mountains, even though we are basically on the same latitudinal line. So all that cold front did here was drop an inch of really fast, really cold, really driving rain over a couple of hours - and take the temps down to the low 40's. It is supposed to get even cooler tonight, down to 38. Perfect for the first of September!

Yup, time to start getting out my fall decorations, and getting ready for Halloween, and planning for the cool weather. I dried apples yesterday and made apple/pecan bread, and I've still got some more cucumbers to pickle and tomatoes to dehydrate. Then of course we have stopped buying the soft and gummy loaves of store bread, so there's bread to be made. We also were informed by Lake the horse that she was NOT happy about all of those huge tree limbs near the watering trough, so I'll be gathering those today.

Lots of things to do today and this week, and with the coolness in the air, it will be so much easier to move and get them done. Looks lke the summer with all of its grinding heat is over. Now comes the real work!

8/29/08

Wood You?

Well, here I sit, exhausted at 3 PM. Sigh.

Got out to beside the garage this AM at 730. This is where the previous folk kept their firewood - and a whole lot more. I am a very organized person about my firewood, because I found that it pays in the deep snow to have everything where you know where it is and can grab it. On some snowy days it has been too dark to really see, in my experience, so the less time one scrabbles around in the cold, the better!

So I lit into the stuff next to the garage. I pulled out old metal cans, soda cans, metal strapping, as well as all types of wood. Now, when I cleaned out the firebox in the family-room woodstove in May, I found a lot of things that were not ashes - nails, screws, bits of melted plastic - that had obviously had the wood around them burned for the heat. I am funny about that - I really prefer to burn just wood. So first I had to separate everything out - and I did it by size, as well as by burnable, burnable with screw/nail removal, etc. First stacked up again was the 'squaw wood', the stuff that starts the fire. I lined it up as the closest pile to the back door, right next to the garage. Next came the 'tween wood' the wood that is bigger around and burns a little longer to help ignite the 'big wood', the all-nighters that go on top.

Most of the 'big wood' logs will have to be split; the firebox is kind of small and very tight, even though being cast iron it puts out a lot of heat. (We tried it one bitter, pouring rainy, 40-mph-North-wind-blowing night after we got here; by the time I banked it and went upstairs, the whole house was toasty.) Finally came the notso good wood, the leftover pieces from projects, the nailed wood that will have to be stripped, stacked on a pallet outside the northernmost corner of the garage. Those pieces I hope to only use in emergencies! But nevertheless, better to start now and get them stripped down before we need them.

Of course the "squaw wood' is the biggest pile; it always is. It is easier to go around and gather sticks than it is to find bigger pieces. As I was stacking them, Mike came out and pitched in (he's been working on getting a drain valve for the water line in, so that we can drain the water lines that go out to the hydrants to keep them from freezing and breaking).

With him there, once we got the wood stacked neatly next to the garage, we went around to the back of the garage, between the garage and corral fence. This is a nice storage/catchall for all sorts of things to keep them out of the wind - too nice, too well-used, and too cluttered. So he got the weedeater out of the garage, and we went to work. There was a huge limb back there that I chopped mostly apart, as far around as the big clippers would reach, which gave me another wheelbarrow full of squaw and tween wood. We cleaned out all of the metal and refuse that had stacked up there over time, and even found some good pieces of big wood to add to the stack.

I'm sure that this all seems pretty boring to those who read it, but it is pretty important to us - to get wood stacked, neatly available, for winter, and to get as much garbage and waste out from around the garage as we can. For one thing, it is an invitation to the scurrying things to nest and move in; for another, it is hard to keep it neat and clean when there is so much there that can't be moved, allowing weeds - even some pretty large tumbleweeds! - to grow.

Because the wind is supposed to pick up Sunday and be pretty intense, and then a cold front will move in Monday (maybe rain - maybe not), I also have been watering everything. The dry winds here kind of scorch whatever's growing pretty quickly if they are not watered. As much as I like fire in a safe place in the winter, wildfire scares me to death. So watering things not only keeps them healthy, but cuts down on the fire danger. The fire department already had an all-day working grassfire this week, south of here.

So the Labor Day weekend that everyone else is enjoying I will enjoy, too - my brother from ID called, he is driving his rig through North Platte, 150 miles south of us, on Sunday, and wants to meet us for lunch. We haven't seen each other in four years! I'll enjoy it a lot more knowing that the wood is stacked, the yard is a little cleaner, and we are a little more prepared for winter.

But lord am I tired! Grin

8/28/08

Nothing Wasted

I'm taking a little sit-down break; a coffee break, if you will. Today I'm peeling and puree'ing tomatoes, pouring them onto the flat sheets in my dehydrator, and making dried tomato paste. Then I'll pulverize it and have tomato powder.

I've got some peppers I'm cutting up to dehydrate on the shelves, too. Not hot peppers; green peppers. Once dehydrated, I can add them to anything - soups, stews, whatever - and add the flavor of summer green peppers. I can even crush them and the tomato powder together and mix them in my bread dough for a really great bread... or mix them with eggs and flour for homemade noodles with a bite.

I've got still more cucumbers and they will be pickled this afternoon. Meanwhile, it is 60 degrees outside, with a brisk North wind, and I'm watering the yard. The "terrible storms" that threatened two nights ago dropped absolutely no rain, but produced a lot of wind that dried out my plants. Which reminds me - time to harvest the basil and thyme. If the weather holds and my sunflowers continue to bloom and produce seeds, I'll have to dry all of them too. Fortunately the lack of humidity here doesn't promote rot; I can air-dry the herbs and seeds if I want. (But putting the herbs in the dehydrator makes the house smell so gooood!) Plus the quicker they dehydrate, the more flavor they hold. After the first frost, I can harvest that horseradish out in the garden, and make not only horseradish sauce, but cold medicine and even a nice rub for sore muscles and joints. I'm wondering too about the possible use for insect repellent; they don't like the capascin in the hot peppers, maybe they won't like the flavenoids in the horseradish either! So much to think about....

The multiplier onions I ordered should be here soon. They are planted in the fall to overwinter, then harvested in late spring. I ordered 50. They also dehydrate well, and even without dehydration, keep for up to 12 months in a cool, dry place (which pretty much describes the basement!) They are heirloom, which means that they and their progeny can be planted year after year with no change in their cellular makeup, like happens with hybrids. Their tops in spring also make great green onions!

I just hate to see things go to waste; especially edible things. And I can't wait to get really started on the greenhouse and the plant starts for spring; already I'm thinking of what to put in for not only my garden and future produce, but to sell.

Yes, it sounds like a lot of trouble to go through, when one can buy things in the store, already processed and ready to cook and eat. But it is fun to do, it keeps things from being wasted - and who knows what food, even the basics, will cost in another six months, or what will even be available? Not to mention what goes into the processing of such things? At least I know what is in the food I'm preserving.

So with disco on the stereo, I'm bustling abut the kitchen, making plans.

8/27/08

Eat a Vegie A Day

"Eat a vegetarian a day, and reduce your chances of being infected by idiots."

I love vegies, but I really love meat. Smoked ham with that delectable juice, bloody medium rare beef with the blackened taste of the grill across it, spaghetti with a rich meat sauce and big sausage/ground beef meatballs, turkey with the crispy skin peeling off, chicken roasted, stewed, souped, riced, or sherried... ummmm. Yup, even hot dogs or hamburgers wolfed down two at a time, covered in mustard, saurkraut, onions raw or grilled, and thick slices of melty cheese. Dark and flavorful deer meat, steaks, cubed steaks, even stuffed into sausage skins and grilled. Yummers!

Of course some fanatical vegetarians produced a miserable ad about how feeding your kids hot dogs could kill them with cancer. Gotta say that I started my educational life in Catholic school, where they served "lunch" - a hot dog en bun, a bag of chips, and a carton of mlk every day except Friday, when we could eat our choice of tuna salad, egg salad, or a fish sandwich. (Being a stubborn child, I asked if egg wasn't a baby chicken and got spanked for my curiosity.) I ain't dead yet; and, with about 200 days a year for five years of hot dogs, and hundreds of poverty-stricken days afterwards when hot dogs were the only meat I tasted, I still don't have cancer!

" The animal rights crazies at the misnamed Physicians Committee for Responsible Medicine (PCRM) are at it again, blanketing America with a TV ad re-branding hot dogs as the new cancer stick. But is anyone buying their baloney? The Associated Press noted last night that PCRM’s research is lacking; and the children in its ad, who claim to have terminal cancer, don’t.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=oPaxW3BrgIY

A new TV commercial shows kids eating hot dogs in a school cafeteria and one little boy’s haunting lament: “I was dumbfounded when the doctor told me I have late-stage colon cancer” …But the boy doesn’t have cancer. Neither do two other kids in the ad who claim to be afflicted.The commercial’s pro-vegetarian sponsors say it’s a dramatization that highlights research linking processed meats, including hot dogs, with higher odds of getting colon cancer."

I wish people would just shut the hell up. "We are ALL gonna DIE!" if we do this that or the other. Guess what? We are all gonna die ANYWAY. And I'm going out with meat and vegies and probably liquor and who knows what in my gut, because life is too short to let fanatical crazies tell you how to live.

8/26/08

Working my tail off

Would it were true; but every time I turn around, there it still is, right behind me. Sigh.
But we were determined to fix everything up by winter; to make it a showplace, to make it beautiful. Folks have stopped us on the street, or talked to us at get-togethers, telling us how much they love what we are doing to the place. We love this old house; so much potential, so many little surprises, so many little things that would cost a fortune - literally - back east. Check out the 2 inch baseboards in the upstairs BR at the end; you can't find anything like that anywhere any more, and they are all throughout the house. So here's the tour...
Here's the pond, before and after..

Yes, that raccoon with the bucket came with us, and is pumping again quite happily in its new location. You can't see the tiles I laid in the bottom of the pond, right into the fresh cement, that make a pretty little picture of flowers in a basket. Just something for when the pond doesn't have water. All of my little daffodils and narcissus bulbs are planted around the pond, too, just waiting for next spring...
The house front - Before and after - Remember that, on the paint, it ALL had to be redone as a condition of the sale, so we and the sellers painted it bright white everywhere. The red, the plants, the statues, are all my own. Once the hot weather and the wind die back a bit, I will scrape together my courage, go up on the ladder, and finish the red trim on the upper story and bay window!




The east porch and yard - of course the trees leafing out for the summer really helps, but if you look close you can see the red paint and trim, and the poor sad fence that needed repainting. The Sunflowers and daylilies and roses in the new garden that lines the fence, are all mine, too...




The West Garden - in the before picture, you can't see the whole fence, but it was pretty ragged and needed sanding. Note the red stylized roses on every post, in both the east and west yards, that match the red trim on the house and porch posts. (Cheaper than spending $2 per finial and sawing off the posts flat to accomodate them!) That big bunch of green in the middle? Horseradish! From the previous owners - now THAT'll keep us warm this winter! LOL





And the upstairs guest room, of which I am now inordinately fond, since I repainted the walls a rich lavender, and polished the floor!


Oh, there's so much more to show; the freshly waxed and oiled doors and trim downstairs that make them sparkle, the new lights in the basement that really make my ceramics shop and the laundry room glow, the way we have redone the tack shop inside so that Mike has his man-cave, the redoing of the barn roofs and corral gates, and the gates and fences all around the gardens and pasture. Yes, as fall weather approaches and things grow cooler, our new home is starting to take on a lovely, warm, even happy character. There's a lot more to do, and we will gradually do it. But this is the place we now call home - and we love it here. Not that you could tell...